Man all the stuff I wrote in my last few entries before I forgot about this place escaped my brain pretty damn fast. Anyway its ironic to see my last entry especially, feel like I've been wasting more time each day. At least I haven't been caught up in either FFXI or WoW so thats always good, haha. I do know that when FFXIV comes out I'll blow off any progress I make toward actually focusing on what I'm going to do with my life.

I have also been thinking about how I really don't want to go through the process of marketing myself to find a job, and being employed by someone to help actualize their ideas instead of my own seems depressing. The thought occurred to me in my first marketing class(which btw seems like a waste of money to take considering everything that is taught in it was the general material that high school economics covers) when we watched a video about someone who worked hard to become a comic artist for Marvel and ended up quitting to start his own business becoming a huge success, I should probably remember his name but it escapes me...

Anyway I think I'd end up feeling the same way, even though I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a heck of an employee. I'm way to motivated by what people think of me... not a great trait to have if I ever want to be a boss or a good artist for that matter.